I'm one of the readers who has been following this. This chapter was just devastating. Dean's memories just killed me. Although I know he would never have gone so far as to rape Sam, I do think that the thoughts he remembered were true to Dean's character. I do think that when Dean was considering saying yes to Michael that he did think Sam would fold and say yes to Lucifer. I know Michael pushed Dean's buttons and brought out all the betrayal and anger that Dean did feel and then he pushed the level up. I ache for Sam for having to deal with Dean in that state. He knew that at least part of it was Dean and I'm sure that only helped to break him more.

I didn't guess that Sam's soul was within Castiel until Cas sensed Lucifer, then I knew. I hope that the years of being sheltered in Cas's body and comforted by what is left of Jimmy's soul has helped to heal Sam's soul. Of course, I hope Sam proves Dean's doubts wrong and continues to refuse Lucifer.

I will miss your biweekly updates, but I want you to take care of your life and to write the best fic you can. I will look forward to seeing updates in a few months. I really hope you finish, as I have been disappointed by other writers. Whatever happens, I do love this story and I thank you for posting it.